"It Begins"

As it all begins to sink in, and the doubt and fear begin to creep into my stomach.... I think to myself, Wait one minute you have been here before... you know what happens next, and it is true, I do know. You either give in to that part of you that thinks, it sure would be nice if you were at home watching a movie, eating some popcorn, and preparing your mind for the next days work. Or you refocus, readjust and remind yourself that there is a damn good reason for me to be out here. I never did like that job, that movie I would have been watching probably had the exact same outline as 5 other movies I have seen this year, and don't even get me started on that popcorn in all of its toxic microwavable glory. Im here! I want to be here! Ahhh, nothing like coming to terms with fear. Now where am i going? North. I take a long hard look North, and as far as the eye can see roads, interchanges, off ramps, lines of cars as long as ten football fields. Damn that popcorn is starting to sound good again! Ok you remember how it goes, you write up a witty sign, stick it out like you mean it aaand, wait! So 2hrs into the wait a kind soul who looks like an x hitcher rolls down his window, reaches out as far as he can and says, hey here's 3 bucks, the light rail will take you into San Diego. Thank you Jesus! I am out of here.